When a song describes what you are feeling

First of all, a big, big, biggest SORRY, for staying too long out of blogging! I have three courses these semester with some serious as hell course professors, and also I am like dying to find out a way to survive in the field of the researchers! 😦 We had 5days long vacation of Chuseok last week, visited some nice places and fellow Bangladeshis Sunchon and Gwangju! That’s the reason, why I’ve been away for two weeks! 😦

Anyways, here I am, IN SHA ALLAH, I’ll be regular again. 🙂

I have no idea, if you guys do it too, but I believe for every moment, there’s a particular song. And not just once, but these song proved more than once that they are explaining myself to me.

• “Until you were gone” by The Chainsmokers with Tritonal feat. Emily Warren.

I’ve been a great fan of Chainsmokers for too long though! I am like in love with their every song. But this particular song of them is kinda underrated, I think. 😦

There’s a saying, when you are happy, you listen to the music, but when you are sad you listen to the lyrics! I always love the song with nice lyrics. So, am I sad always? LOL nah 😉  So, let’s get back to the song!

But the taste turned bitter
So I pulled the trigger
Not so easy to move on
I guess I should have known

Not so easy to move on, I guess I should have known! Gosh, how true that is! After every argue, every misunderstanding, no matter how much you want things to go back the way they were, it won’t! Some spots are permanent, you can’t ever remove them.

I was always told that only time would heal the pain
And even though it’s been so long, it still hurts just the same

It still hurts just the same! Yup, it does. We don’t laugh at the same things repeatedly, but we cry over the same things! It’s funny and it’s ironic! Not so easy to move on.

Moving in here, changed a big part of my life. I was relieved & relaxed, you don’t have to worry much when you live with your parents. But when you start your own family, you know things are never gonna be the same. From the simplest task of selecting which meal you will be putting on your table today, now, you are the one who has to take the responsibility, you are the one who needs to think how he/she’s gonna manage all the expenses.

• “Big girls cry” by Sia.

I may cry, ruining my makeup
Wash away all the things you’ve taken
And I don’t care if I don’t look pretty
Big girls cry when their hearts are breaking

Big girls cry when their hearts are breaking. True.

• Sia’s “Alive”.

I suddenly realize there’s too many facts about me, which was unknown even to myself! Like the fact that, I keep on shaking and trembling with palpitations when I’m excited emotionally. Even when I’m happy, even when I’m sad. Physically I am kinda vulnerable too sometimes. I stay awake night after night, fighting with all the demons in my head. But like always, I wake up every morning hoping for the best! And I’m still alive! Thanks to ALLAH!

I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go
Where the wind don’t change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you’re taught to cry into your pillow
But I survived

I’m still breathing
I’m alive

Cry into your pillow, that’s the thing didn’t change at all. For some reasons, I cry over little things every time. But is everything actually as little as they say?

See, how many lines I had to write, where these small part of lyrics, explaining me and myself! That’s what I love about music! It’s like you put on your headphone and someone else from another world saying what you need to say.

A big shout out to all the musician and singers out there for making our life much easier and lively for us!

Bye everyone! Will be back soon! ❤